I am now in college and loving it. I have had no regrets (so far) and I hope to obtain that status. I miss a lot of my friends that have gone to other schools but I feel that if a friendship is meant to last, it will, no matter how many obstacles may come in between us.
Being in college and growing up has made me look back and all the things I have done, I have missed, I have ruined. I can't help but feel that I need to go back and re-live, re-create, and re-evaluate everything in my life. Obviously that is impossible but its nice to think that there could be a small chance of something like that happening. If I ever am blessed with a do-over I would be sure to get it right the second time.
With living life on the seat of my pants I really notice that I miss a lot. I hate that. I always want to be everywhere all the time and that is most often not the case. My family has not been close since my dear grandma passed a few years ago. I really wish that people could love without having hate block their judgment. The only family I have is the family that gets along (and trust me it's much smaller than you would think). I think that life is way to short to hold grudges or seek revenge on someone that deep down you really love. Once somebody is gone you can't take back what you have done.
I guess that this is a rant about life, not just my life. Open your eyes to your reality. Do you hate someones guts? Is an overdue intervention itching away at your insides? Have you been bitten by revenge? Let it go, be the bigger person. I think we both know that it will make out for a better future.
Good thoughts for a good night.
Steph
